At first i thought i wouldnt write anything becos we allready did this once and i dont want to "fish" for long goodbyes. i just pulled a double shift 16h and i had a lot of time to be with my thoughts. So i realized that if i dont say anything ppl wil just make their own conclusions of me + its cowardice to not give some sort of reason as to why i killed my character that i "loved" and worked so hard on.
So what you saw was that i didnt get some shitty loot, went blitz!:taz: and deleted my character. true, but thats only one side of the coin. ive been thinking really hard about why i did what i did and i did come to a conclusion. in these couple days of silence.
Tho i want to clear before i go on that i am not out to flame anyone or anything becos that is not how id like to be rememberd by my friends. this one is coming straight from the heart and should it hurt anyones feelings i apologize.
Anyhow i rewinded a bit of my feelings as to why did it affect me so HARD to lose the xbow?! after all its just loot and when i quit WoW and came back i didnt come for no loot, but becos i dearly missed my friends and needed their company. so why?
Well it all goes back to when i came back to WOW and to SoG and my rg1 status had been removed (becos of my own wishes) so there i was. a hunter ready for action, and most of all! a human wishing to reunite with friends for the fun that comes out of raiding. but so went a week, and it was quite boring. since i couldnt attend raids, and so went another week with same thing. i did try my hardest but wasnt allowed to attend raids. so gradually the itch of raiding started affecting me badly! after all it was all i had done for the past year or so what else was there? so when an offer From righteous came:blink: i ofc took it blindly, in hopes of a lot of raiding fun- fully aware it wouldnt be the same thing. but i thought hey, i am not raiding with SoG thus they dont need me. and i wil stil have my friends anyhow so why not.
So i was there for 2-3 weeks and came to realize why i really played this game. it indeed was becos of close friends and fun with them. playing with righteous was ofc fun in ways of learning new stuff. but it was allready a tight community that i didnt belong to. so i left them. and was close to quitting again. when i heard there was an opening in SoG rg1 again:clap::clap: MY SPOT after all, prior to leaving i had one of the best attendance of RG1 i had most dkp of hunters! i had KILLED my Rl literally to be in raids as much as possible. i had "shed blood, sweat and tears" to allways be there as much as possible. so i had earned My Spot with friends i respected and liked.
but strangely and very conveniently as i rejoined the guild, a new rule had been implemented. and this rule was: anyone who leaves the guild wil lose all of their dkp ALL OF IT! now when i had left the guild such rule had not been made, but as i rejoined. it had suddenly been finalized... now we had member/s who had /gquit a thousand times and come back and had not lost a single point of dkp. but when me joining righteous for no more than 3 weeks came back lost ALL OF MY DKP!:angry: alll that i had worked for... for nearly a year:thumbsdown: all of those cancelling appointment with Girlfriend to play. all of those grinding for pots /agi boosts to get those first kills. ALL of them erased! this was to me the most devastating thing i had yet encountered in WoW.
so i did talk to some officers about it, and they did try to make it so that it would be a DKp penalty as in maybe say loosing 500 dkp instead of NEARLY 2000 DKP!!! but some officers apparently would have none of it. so i felt like getting punished for leaving WoW when my lifestyle was unbareable, and then joining righteous when there was no spot nor any idea when a spot was going to be open to raid with SoG.
But in my mind i was happy to be raiding with SoG again:clap: and i had all my friends closely around me. so i thought meh what the heck?! atleast il have fun raiding so lets forget about it.
But that was my biggest mistake! what i didnt realize was, by taking ALL of my Dkp the officers had totally ERASED me. all the things i had worked So damn hard for had been taken away from me. now i did mention its not about loot and its only a bonus that comes from raiding, but stil its compareable to losing your pension:yell: imo its a guarantee that you are indeed acknowledged for the hard work and effort you have put in a guild. and insurance that you wil allways be compensated more than some new hunters/ppl that join in to A READY HARDCORE RAIDING GUILD THAT YOU HELPED CREATE.
So who was there when we had trouble getting enough ppl to kill domo? yeh thats been erased. so who was there when we could barely get 30 ppl to kill ragnaros after wiping for 1 month straight? yeh thats been erased.
so who was there for WEEKS and WEEKS of wiping and wiping on razorgore while a lot of ppl didnt show up. i WAS there for each friggin wipe. but yeh thats been erased.
same for VAEL who was there never coming to a raid without some means to increase Dps for that fight, with mongoose pots, fish that gave mana regen and + agility. stuff you get from fellwood to increase your hp by 10 points, Hp pots, FR pots .you all know how long time it takes to get these stuff! and me like a lot of good rg1 ppl went the extra miles to get there. but in my case it was erased all those efforts gone. if anyone doubts my word its all on dkp site just check for my attendance prior to me quitting wow. every 2 days i am in a raid on all the hard ones. so did i earn it ? you decide... just like every1 else that went that extra mile. i think i did.
So THEN, i sit back and watch how each and every single one of the ppl who went the extra mile got all the items they had allways wished for mostly. examples. tanales got hes Xbow, rata got hes DS like he allways wanted. Tl and kreuz got their staff of shadowflame. secohan got hes legenday mace. vargen got just about everything ^^ raggy and gorion got their car door + a shitloads of other wet dreams. marduk got hes Mace. bastet got all the items he wanted. lunares got hes full set same to pente so all these dreams got fulfilled more or less. but for me the item i allways had wet dreams about indeed! was the Xbow8) the item that was "destined to take me to new heights in my dreams" the DS i couldnt care less for, i had allready passed some DS. The item that was allways haunting my thouhgts! it was my ashcandy it was my staff of shadowflame it was my legendary hammer. i deserved it! but i never did get it why? because of a louzy 3 weeks off from SoG. yeh i guess you could call me greedy? sure i could have waited another 5 months. eventually it would have dropped
But when it did drop!!! and for a split second i thought finally the wait of 10 months has ended (i thought i would get it becos i had asked for hunters if it was OK to pass it for me and they were ok with it becos they knew what it meant for me) but i ddint get it:alien::pinch::frown::sad::mad: and a hunter who had done far less in accomplishemnt than me got it. this was honestly the most excruciating thing ever for me in WoW. even more than losing my dkp. then it all snapped:angry: i got so enraged huhuran would look like a mouse in comparison. i wanted to scream and shout like hell i had waited SO LONG and i sure as hell was not gonna wait any longer so i did what i did .. i had lost all faith in the guild. i knew it was total madness, a childish act! but it didnt matter anymore... theres just somethings you cant take.
anyhow as i told you in the beginning i am not trying to flame anyone. in hes heart that hunter did the right thing to improve hes dps, he had more dkp and it was hes rightfully to the system we used. and i should have been experienced enough to not get my hopes that high. becos as we all know, promises not written on paper do not hold.
so there you have it folks. dont take it as a flame plz. i hope maybe you get to understand me and the stupid yet necessary act that i did. if anyone actually had time to read that all i am sorry it was so long. sure was much less in my mind :tongue:
and as i said this is indeed my last post. i dont intend to write anything to reply to this post as indeed Ashjen is dead. he has been deleted and all hes gear disencahnted. so i am not coming back this time, alltho i really miss you guys allready and boy is it hard not to PLAY... goddamn it :laugh: but this time il sort that Rl :) now plz allow me to share some of my memories with all of you as a thank you for all the fun times we had together and i throughly enjoyed being a proud member of SoG and i think honestly officers are doing a great job pushing the guild to better and better results!
About everything you wrote I knew because of the conversations we always had Ashjen, and you know my thoughts on it, so not saying anything about it but quoting myself from the other topic in hunter class forums:
:bye2: :bye2: :bye2: :bye2:
You will be missed so much Ashjen. Things will never be the same for me again in raids. :(
I'm really bad with goodbye's and stuff, but take care man, have much fun IRL, live life like never before and make the most out of it you can.
Thursday 07-09-06 is from now on a black day for aszune, on which the best hunter Aszune retired from Warcraft.
R.I.P. Ashjen, Thou shall not be forgotten. :bye2: :bye2: :bye2: :bye2:
QuoteDon't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.
P.S. Today, 08-09-06, I created a NE Hunter named Ashjen, as memorial, so we will never see a phony fake Ashjen imitator. Char will be unplayed.
<3 Ashjen
Will miss ya mate :( You've been here a lonnnnng time, and put alot of work in and you have my respect.
Goodbye to one of the greatest hunters on Aszune! :(
Lol i had written so much of all i wanted to say, couldnt be in the same page ;/
So i am doing it again on this page (ouch) was basicly a list of ppl i wanted to thank.
Kreuz: thx for all the arguments about "hunter dps" and thx for helping me when i came to SoG i was a nub then and stil Am :) TL: for adding humor to such a demandingly hard job thx for leading us to many victories i think you do a great job. keep it up. Padding: thx for taking the time to talk to me m8 allways considered you as a friend. and thx for talking to me before quitting. Pente: i enjoyed our fights for DPs with your rogue m8 hope you can be all you want to be with your hunter. Vargen: thx for letting me back in the guild. i am sorry i fecked up, but il allways remember you as a decent and funny guy.
Adu-rofl man :) you were a hilarious one atleast by my humor, and allways the one of the officers to keep hes cool. Lunares: thx for all the chats m8 also thx for the 20 man raids you did a fantastic job there. bastet: hmm i enjoyed talking to the real bastet prior to becoming an officer m8. i blame the stress that you must be under that has cahnged you a lot. i appreciate the sizeable effort you put into making SoG a better guild for us. you fool :P Raggy oh raggy i enjoyed the talk of "sweaty leather pants" on ts a long time ago. also thx for allways being there for us in MC and bwl it really made a difference. Tanales: my favorite officer hands down :) you allways had my back m8 no matter how much overaggro:tongue: i hope you felt i had yours as well! thx for keeping the side of this hopeless case m8 /hug.
Ratatosk omg m8 i will miss you dearly your kindness to me i cannot describe in words i allways enjoyed our talks m8 the most kind man i know. 5 thumbs up for you ! Secohan you fall in the same category m8 thx for your kind words to me before i quit it really made me feel a lot better, i am sorry i never took the time to get to know you better m8. the most honestman i knew. SoulB a friend i never thought id get a man who has incredible raid motivation and as honest as player as ive ever seen. thx m8 i hope it all works out with your SiS soon m8 Gl. Menedil and Dajo these 2 wil allways be timeless for me i cannot forget our tme in WOW so many adventures GIB GROUP 7 PLZ!!!!!. thx for playing with me guys i hope you get all your worht in this game. both of you! Voretex thx for a lot of PVP we sure gave them a run for their money :) you know i really like ya ? :happy: Sinap and Neff.. omg liek grow up pliex hehe thx for all the fun moments you 2 GL with both of your raiding succes! luthor and Torir both genuinly decent guys. i overly enjoyed playing and chatting with. il miss ya guys for your sincerity.
Stronti: thx for all the pvp fun m8 i really enjoyed defending 2 on 5, they never knew what hit em :) Asheera: thx for all the honest chat m8 you have an incredible potential for dmg m8 i hope you get to use all of it someplace ! Whisperer: omg lol sorry i made ya make all those pots for Domo (that took a bit of time) that i never got the cance to give the raid a s we pawned domo:) thx Kreggie for the help on them damn bugs couldnt have done it without ya m8 GL. lucian: sorry i was sucha crappy friend to you once, ive seen you grow to a fine hunter m8! and i am sorry you never get to sing on TS :) Spiritus: thx for the mnamna song on TS, really cheerful for me when i was tired :) and then i saved the best for last! Thx Marduk for allways being there for me! allways helpfull! allways willing to get in trouble with me! i hope you know i felt like you were a brother i never had, truly the best son a father could have. a true gem of a person.. i gotto quit now cos i cant hold back a tear ;/ (BIG HUG)
...Sorry if my punctuation is messed up been awake for 24h now and its taken me 3h to complete all this writing so its a mess :happy:
I wont reply to this anymore but feel free to write anything you want about me i wil read each one for as long as officers let me have my right to read this forum. may it be rant flame or just spam as long as its honest.
SO GOOODLUCK SOG!!!!!!!!!! i hope for many years of succesfull raiding for you guys, and i intend to check on your raid proggress and grz from inside. thx for all the fun and memories m8s. bye bye Ashjen out
Goodbye mate, It's a shame how it ended and you will be sorely missed. However enjoy real life and don't forget us, pop in to let us know how you are doing. Once SoG ..always SoG!
SD
I'll miss you ashjen, a hunter who really knew everything of his class, and maxed it out.
Take care.
cya m8, and good luck out there
Goodbye Ashjen, always sad to see people go that you've played with for a really long time...
You will be missed dearly
Cya ashjen was kickass playing with you, i even got a mention<3
Me and Simon will never get any older than we are now, shitkids fo'life.
Wont slag you at all, but we all have lost an item, each of us prob for a reason we thought was unfair. But basicaly if you drop out of a guild, nomatter why you did it you loose your sh't , no offence, but it simply makes it harder to dance between guilds :)
:bye2: :no2: :bye2:
:byesad:. will miss you mate.
Shitkids fo'life yo! Damnit Ash :( Gief back imba hunter!
wonder if Bliz can undelete..... ;)
Quote from: StrontiumDog;149197wonder if Bliz can undelete..... ;)
Yes, they can.
Quote from: Ashjen;149138Kreuz: thx for all the arguments about "hunter dps" and thx for helping me when i came to SoG i was a nub then and stil Am :)
We'll miss you Ashjen, gl with RL or whatever you're going to spend your time on now. :smile:
I'll definently miss the DPS conversations :biggrin:
Quote from: Dajo;149135R.I.P. Ashjen, Thou shall not be forgotten.
P.S. Today, 08-09-06, I created a NE Hunter named Ashjen, as memorial, so we will never see a phony fake Ashjen imitator. Char will be unplayed.
Thats a nice thing to do, biggest compliment u could do :smile:
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Hope you'll be happy, and best wished to you :byebye:
Sad for myself and the rest of the guild to see you leave Ash :byesad:
Glad for you, that you made your desicion, and that RL was the winner :clap2:
:rockon:
Even though I didn't really know you, I'm truely sad that you're leaving :byesad: . Goodbye Ashjen and the best of luck in RL :byebye: .
QuoteI'll definently miss the DPS conversations :biggrin:
You used to "conversate" the same as you do in RL? You pulling the good 'ol"man your small!" and "KEK! TAPER" ? :)
****THIS AM VORE****
Holy shizzle Ashjen i was likeee totally shocked when i heard you quit :( mega :(
Out of all the hunters on aszune ive played with you were always putting 100% in and without a doubt the best hunter ive played with, always top damage on the meters, always top KBs in BGs (with the help from some sexeh healing from me :) )
But in all seriousness you along with mr marduk are the two most genuine guys ive met playing wow ! <3 to you two.
Slap me ur email address u slag u arent getting away from me that easily! And if u ever want to come back, mail Blizz theyll be more than happy to re open ur account, with 1g, and being totally nakeeeed =). I've got ur msn somewhere but im not sure which one it is :|
PM torir with it, or ill hunt you down :D
I still got a video of you doing crazy circus **** on my laptop. . 2 of them infact.
R.I.P Aszune's bestest hunter evarr
:'(
<3
Ashjen! It hurts knowing that you are leaving. You made every one of us better fighters just by your mere presence. Good luck out there, it is a tough world, but I`m sure you amongst all can make it!
Bye bye my hero.
(by the way, loosing ALL of my DKP when I rejoined really bummed me out. I feel like I was punished. It was, after all, credited to me for work I allready _did_.)
Sad to see you leave mate, GL with whatever you do
goodbye ashjen :byesad:
sad to see you go m8.
.... keep in contact ...
and good luck irl! :byebye:
:'(
Cya Mr Quiet Hunter dude, hope RL can be as fun *hug*