My dad died today.
It has evoked alot of emotions in me. Mainly anger.
My dad beat me and my sisters and my mum. Thats probably 1 reason why i see violence as a mean to solve problems. Either iether.
I never got to tell him how much i hated him.
Just giving a heads up as im actually quite lost.
Really sorry to hear this Switch, whatever your relationship with him over the years it always has an emotional impact and is traumatic to endure. If it helps and you want it, feel free to grab me on TS if you need someone to listen to you. In times like this, I think about my own immediate family, it brings other things back into focus and let's me de-sensitise myself to some of the toxic world outside my control. Remember we have the dMw LAN in a few weeks and I'm sure meeting up with us lot of reprobates will help remind you of the positive in life too.
The loss of a father is never easy, but it does provide us with the opportunity to recognise how much we cherish what we truly hold dear.
I cant say more then TL just said hope it goes well for you and find your way back on the straight arrow